Friday, February 8, 2008
humans are like that.
when they were first born,they need help from people to stand up,slowly they learn how to walk,run and be independent.
once they know how to walk,they walk and walk,hardly ever turns back
they forgot whose help they have received.those who did their part to make sure this person can walk.in the end they will still be forgotten.
people only look at your mistakes.no matter how much you've helped them in the past,if you just do a single mistake,they will remember it for life.as of the help they received? i don't know.
have anyone of you ever look back and think,how selfish we can be?
how disgusting we can get?just to achieve our coveted wish...
it's really scary if you think of this.
it might even makes you feel like a lowdown animal
a lowlife
we make mistakes
we tell ourselves we wont do it again
but we still
the greatest lesson that history taught mankind is that,humans never learn from the history.
this phatetic world is trapped in an endless vicious cycle.
::8:48 AM
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
my oh my,how long has i paused just because of a hopeless matter?
quite long i say.
anyway its time to wake up.
O's around the corner.
class suck,
**** suck too big time.
alot of people are being inconsiderate
oh well i dont care lah...
not at least for something that doesnt have an eternal value.
anyway...thanks to those who has been lending their ears for me to rant about a particular problem.
i'll try to stop ranting about it ok?
yeah.
rachel,zeyan,jeremy tham,jeremy koo,kelvin,odell and darius
these few has been source of my comfort and joy when im around them.
i just feel relaxed and i feel like im around my friends and i know they do want me to start smiling like last time again.
and not to fret over an undeniable fact.
::7:52 AM
Monday, October 8, 2007
The flowers are set alight
Sparkling, dancing, releasing a blue dream
Two petals from the fireworks of dreams fall quietly in the sky
Did you, who went away to the other side, see it too? It’s the same light
And
Even if the two are apart, I believe that they’ll come together again someday
I’m singing to you, singing of this love that tears my heart apart, can you hear my voice?
It’s fireworks, bursting in an instant
Bloom proudly, way up high
Sparkling, dancing, releasing a blue dream
The love that protects us rings out in earnest
At least it will be strong until the end
The flowers are set alight
All kinds of words scattered about mischievously
And the confusion that rooted me to the spot quietly disappeared, can you see
Tomorrow?
It’s fireworks, bursting in an instant
I grasp the sparkling, dancing flowers of dreams
As they rain down into my hands
Let my love ring out to you like I wish it to
If it’s going to be over, at least let it be strong
The flowers are set alight
It’s fireworks, bursting in an instant
Sparkle, dance, send up a blue dream
Someday we’ll meet
You, me, and the love that joins us
We’ll be strong together, forever
Bloom proudly, way up high
Sparkling, dancing, releasing a blue dream
The love that protects us rings out in earnest
At least it will be strong until the end
The flowers are set alight
::5:22 AM
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
whatever i used to have,i count it as lost now,
''fight for the sake of those you have lost,fight for the sake of protecting things you don't want to lose''
what was all that.
you all think it works that way?
protect,protect,protect
how about thinking of protecting your own feelings first?
i put other's interest at first.
i might not the only one.
im just not appreciated.
im always being used.
you received your help,had your fun, and then all of you are through with me?
and go find another person to repeat the process with?
forgive?
SHUT UP!!! JUST SHUT UP OK?!!
dont speak of forgiveness so easily.
losing something/someone important and you hold dear,
especially when its taken away.
any idea how irritating and painful it feels?
dont know? THEN SHUT YOUR GODDAMN TRAPS.
all of you people think its easy to forgive?
i'll kill or take away someone/something you hold dear.
and then i'll ask you to forgive me
and i wont make up for it.
HOW DO YOU FEEL?
i think kelvin and jeremy tham should know what im talking about.
you people think i dont want to forgive?
any idea how have i been forcing myself to forget and forgive this incident?
all of you have no idea what kind of emotional state and pressure im facing right now ok?
all you people can do is to say "its ok,everything's gonna be fine" "im sure you are not the only on trying"
i know goddamn it,I KNOW
but you think its easy?whenever i think about it,
i cant help but to feel hatred.
the kind of feeling where you want to forgive,but you just cant not because you dont want to,
but you just cant?
does anyone of you understand or not?!
no you dont!
to be deprived from something you love so much,
something that you hold so dear
its just too cruel
but what do people say ''oh,its just the way of the world"
yes i know,but i just cant help it ok?
i feel betrayed and hurt lah ok?
say im like a girl.
go ahead
i dont give a FUCK
you know why?coz i cant be bothered with
pitiful people like you guys who only regret when you lost something.
im not gonna name people.
i know those words were meant to console me
but please know that
there are times where words of comfort doesnt matter anymore.
problems problems problem problems
they just keep coming
and you know whats the best thing?
when i need and expect that someone to be there for me at least as a friend,
the person just says 'i dont care about anything anymore'
fuck lah ok...
this world is already above deceit
i hate it,i have to be there when people need comfort
when im not wiling or unable,
i became the selfish monster
but when i need someone and they are not there,
what are they?
see?
humans damn disgusting right?
you only fight for their own interests.
maybe i should be like them too.
just be selfish.
::8:04 AM
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Rushing out from the norm
You helped me escaped the mundane life
You are a boy, child
There are times you're not an adult yet
But you can't stay a child anymore.
In this world where everyone is rushing in a hurry
We stopped upon seeing a shooting star.
There is one thing I can't give up.
With just this I can become stronger
I lead you,who are afraid, by the hand and walk
Through the fair wind which raises our spirit.
Yearning for love innocently
You are a girl, child
Even though you don't say it,
But you have problems too
In this monochrome world where everyone ridicules
Drawing out dreams isn't a lie
There is one thing I can't give up.
With just this I can become stronger
I lead you,who are afraid, by the hand and walk
Through the fair wind which raises our spirit.
Those blocking our way, are all gone now
I stretched out my hand towards the star, and thought, when would I be able to reach it
In this world where everyone is rushing in a hurry
We stopped upon seeing a shooting star to wish
There is one thing I can't give up.
With just this I can become stronger
I lead you,who are afraid, by the hand and walk
Through the fair wind which raises our spirit.
Even though I am lost and puzzled, it doesn't matter
There is one thing I can't give up.
Through the fair wind which raises our spirit.
::6:08 AM
Monday, September 24, 2007
i can't figure out what's going on
with eyes that see black and white
i tried to do my best
there is nothing i can do for you
back then..
something gave me excitement
gave me satisfaction
do i really know myself?
don't go anywhere
please don't go anywhere
i would like to return there
why is it so heavy now?
back then i..
like yesterday, coudn't think anymore
don't go back
please don't go anymore
i know i can't walk with my eyes closed
alone.. eyes closed
i know i can't always go towards the sky
alone.. under the sky
like always, i hurt you with my words
i politely asked..
what i can reach now..
don't go anywhere anymore
please don't go anymore
let's not walk any further
please don't go anymore
don't walk more than me
let's not walk any further
i can't walk any further...
Goodbye Halcyon Days
::9:06 PM
Saturday, September 22, 2007
Goodbye Halcyon Days
we've got legs,we can move around,
there's got to be a place we want to be.
::11:15 PM
