Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Rushing out from the norm
You helped me escaped the mundane life
You are a boy, child
There are times you're not an adult yet
But you can't stay a child anymore.
In this world where everyone is rushing in a hurry
We stopped upon seeing a shooting star.
There is one thing I can't give up.
With just this I can become stronger
I lead you,who are afraid, by the hand and walk
Through the fair wind which raises our spirit.
Yearning for love innocently
You are a girl, child
Even though you don't say it,
But you have problems too
In this monochrome world where everyone ridicules
Drawing out dreams isn't a lie
There is one thing I can't give up.
With just this I can become stronger
I lead you,who are afraid, by the hand and walk
Through the fair wind which raises our spirit.
Those blocking our way, are all gone now
I stretched out my hand towards the star, and thought, when would I be able to reach it
In this world where everyone is rushing in a hurry
We stopped upon seeing a shooting star to wish
There is one thing I can't give up.
With just this I can become stronger
I lead you,who are afraid, by the hand and walk
Through the fair wind which raises our spirit.
Even though I am lost and puzzled, it doesn't matter
There is one thing I can't give up.
Through the fair wind which raises our spirit.
::6:08 AM
Monday, September 24, 2007
i can't figure out what's going on
with eyes that see black and white
i tried to do my best
there is nothing i can do for you
back then..
something gave me excitement
gave me satisfaction
do i really know myself?
don't go anywhere
please don't go anywhere
i would like to return there
why is it so heavy now?
back then i..
like yesterday, coudn't think anymore
don't go back
please don't go anymore
i know i can't walk with my eyes closed
alone.. eyes closed
i know i can't always go towards the sky
alone.. under the sky
like always, i hurt you with my words
i politely asked..
what i can reach now..
don't go anywhere anymore
please don't go anymore
let's not walk any further
please don't go anymore
don't walk more than me
let's not walk any further
i can't walk any further...
Goodbye Halcyon Days
::9:06 PM
Saturday, September 22, 2007
Goodbye Halcyon Days
we've got legs,we can move around,
there's got to be a place we want to be.
::11:15 PM
Monday, September 17, 2007
if it's gonna be like that anyway,
lets dream our dumb dreams...,
at least bright and happy.
you don't have to act cool,
its more like you not to put on 'airs'
the harder and harder we try,
the faster the wheel of destiny spins
like a march of schoolchildren
their arms and legs move forward together,
in unison happily.
but isn't that just fine?
its better living your life,
to be laughed by others..
in the depths of my mind,
the real me were sealed away.
36'5 degree of real me,
we don't stop with no directions.
but I'm still acting tough,
I'm putting on barriers
I'm fighting the pain
if only i could say how i feel when it hurts
we're weak but acting tough.
the reason why we say we are OK when we're lonely,
is to protect our already crumbling heart.
I'm sure it's not just me,
carrying all these,
feelings with nowhere to go,
this loneliness with nowhere to be.
crying for what we failed to protect,
like a little baby.
sitting and waiting for the snack called 'love'
I looked at the person who was walking
faster than their shadow cast on asphalt and thought,
if we've got legs,we can move
and a place where we want to be.
Then let's walk there.
there were some nights i thought
i'd never get back my real smile but,
aided by the warmth of those who are important to me,
I thought i might try believing again.
if only i could say how i feel when it hurts
we're weak but acting tough.
the reason why we say we are OK when we're lonely,
is to protect our already crumbling heart.
the mistakes and scars,
the days i was lost and almost cried,
I thought that as a proof that i have lived my life as 'me'
if it would be like that anyway,
i'd want to dream dumb dreams with more passion than anyone else.
put away my excuses,puff my chest up high,
and keep singing of a person called '
ME'
as long as we are alive,there is hope,
as long as there is life,we have to keep the flame of hope flickering,
in our soul.
=))))))))
majority is ripped from a song lyric titled
"Ketsui no Asa Ni"-Aqua Timez (a decision in the morning)
i thought its inspiring...and enjoyable i shall post up the song soon.
::8:55 AM
Sunday, September 16, 2007
I’m thinking about you so much…time doesn’t stop for me My empty heart still can’t find your feelings I can never draw the same picture twice But my emotions are just repeating over and over again Let me listen to your “love song.” I stared at your profile I want to know about you, now that I’ve met you No matter how lonely I get, I have a feeling we’ll meet again I don’t need a reason; I know I can’t turn back With the way it is now , I’ll just become a part of your memory, right? My emotions shone like the depths of tears… Let me listen to your “love song.” Your profile… I understand there’s a person you’re gazing at right in front of you but… Please give me wings and believe that, just as with this song , I swear I’ve decided to accept all the past I hum the “love song”…I want to touch your smiling face Even though I know that there’s someone you’re gazing at My “love song” never ends - I’ve already met you …It never will end…things happen,and it ends before you know it.
i met her only few months ago.now she's gone.
the one who sang the song of love to me.
even though i hated her for being rude when we first met,
slowly i began to accept her rudeness,and sometimes even find it lovable.
as time revolves,fond memory were forged.
strong bond were created
but now,after i was so sure that she's the one i ever truly loved,
she has to leave
but even so,
the memories we had,
time we spent,
all will stay alive in me.
always...
good-bye my love,
good-bye halcyon days...
till fate bring us together again...
until then I'll stay alive
::5:44 AM
Thursday, September 13, 2007
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared, even if I’m hurt
I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Do you love me? Or not love me?
As for things like that, it’s already fine either way
No matter how I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That’s right, and because only the fact of my loving you
Is the truth unchangeable by anyone
I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell it to you
There’s something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s scary to turn my feelings into words
But I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
In this broad world, I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter, wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew, so that we can protect someone
On the path we came from and our destination, when we looked back, I’d always have timid eyes
I want to face you, but I can’t be honest
I, who repeated days of not being able to straightforwardly love my partner
And hated being alone on that day
Seemed to love people while unwounded
I’ll overcome the thousands of nights and go meet you now
There is something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Even if those thoughts aren’t fulfilled, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s the most wonderful thing in this world i don't know if i should still ask her after all the above went through my mind...
::6:24 AM
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
If you want to do something, then sketch out your pitiful dream
If you want to do something, then sketch out your dream, with badly lit, but pleasant love
"You don't have to pretend, not being very cool suits you well"
The more effort we put into it, the more fruitless our journey is
Our hands and fleet fly everywhere, like we're in an elementary school parade
Living life, isn't it great?
So being laughed at by people definitely feels alright
The real me is shut away in the depths of my heart
36/5 human, to put it plainly now, we don't stop
But I'm still acting tough, I'm still putting up a barrier
I'm fighting with the pain
Times are tough, I wish I could say that that's how I feel
We're a couple of laughing cowards, acting tough
Even though I'm lonely, I'm pretending to be just fine
In order to protect myself, who feels like he's about to crumble
It shouldn't be only me that feels these feelings of having no place to turn to
I'm carrying with me
This rootless loneliness...
I'm indifferent to the pain of others
When I'm really being myself, I get insecure
I hate people, and I think only of being unhappy
I whine about the things that I'm deprived of, I scream and cry like a 3 year old kid
I'm sitting and waiting for my afternoon snack, called love
Not giving in to the reflection in the asphalt
Walking with my own feet, I looked at people, and thought
If I could move, if there was a place I wanted to head to
Then I would walk there with my own feet
There were nights when I wasn't sure if I'd be able to
Get my real smile back again
Supported by the warmth of the people that I love
I thought that maybe I should try to believe, one more time
Times are tough, I wish I could say that that's how I feel
We're a couple of laughing cowards, acting tough
Even though I'm lonely, I'm pretending to be just fine
In order to protect myself, who feels like he's about to crumble, but
My mistakes and scars, being perplexed, and the days when I was about to cry
They're all proof that I lived my life, as myself
If you want to do something, then from now on
Sketch out your pitiful dream, with more strength than anyone else
Readying your explanation, and holding your head high, without hesitation
Keep on singing about a person called yourself
I dedicate this post to US
for all the quarrels and bickering that we had
this is the condensed thought that went through my mind always. =)
::7:46 AM
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
"Even there are some who tries to destroy, there are also those that tries to heal and to them,it is very important."
Your folded,fragile wings
are just tired of the blue sky
No need to force your smiles on anyone
It's okay to smile for yourself
That loneliness keeps coming back,
but there's a candle burning inside
there shouldn't be a wonderful chandelier in such a wild place like this
can empty words really bury it all?
i don't know anymore.
At the very least
if we are able to swim freely in our dreams,
we wouldn't need that blue sky
There is no need to bring the past back,
face the new day
Settlement with inferiority complex can't be easily changed
at the limits of self-consciousness,
the remaining mirrors reflect the falling petals
Dirty love yells,
like one's strained voice
It's irritating.
In revolving time,wounds appear
and transform into scars
You keep waiting.
so beautifully,so fleeting...
unstuck, tears are soft
the prayers that weave within the sun
it's now becoming more unreasonable to love someone.
The future that time brings seems so much brighter
Like in depression,the eyes that showed an inverted world that dries tears
Why do we feel so alone everytime?
bearing everything is agreeable,
Why do we still feel so alone everytime?
because it isnt true courage...
::6:45 AM
Monday, September 10, 2007
1. This is my Father's world,
and to my listening ears
all nature sings, and round me rings
the music of the spheres.
This is my Father's world:
I rest me in the thought
of rocks and trees, of skies and seas;
his hand the wonders wrought.
2. This is my Father's world,
the birds their carols raise,
the morning light, the lily white,
declare their maker's praise.
This is my Father's world:
he shines in all that's fair;
in the rustling grass I hear him pass;
he speaks to me everywhere.
3. This is my Father's world.
O let me ne'er forget
that though the wrong seems oft so strong,
God is the ruler yet.
This is my Father's world:
why should my heart be sad?
The Lord is King; let the heavens ring!
God reigns; let the earth be glad!
::4:15 AM
Sunday, September 9, 2007
Let's see.i havent breathed for awhile now,
what do you people say about wrecking havoc outside for awhile,
before that ryan surpresses me again.
Ahahahaha LOOKING FORWARD TO HAVE FUN WITH YOU PEOPLE!
let me teach all of you what is pain.
especially when it comes because you lost something important
It wont be easy...but please try your best to learn the word
'PAIN' the hard way. =))))))))))
That stpid ryan just couldnt bear to do it to all his 'FRIENDS'
So,since im another part of him,and i cant stand being soft,
I will do him and all of you a favour!
looking forward to it.
Stay alive till then everyone!!
the fun begins on 10-09-2007!!!
::6:03 AM
shit.i mean shit.i thought everything was gonna be fine after that goddamn it!
i shouldnt have started it again
FUCK IT!
::5:54 AM
